Yours if you wanted

let’s ignore the definition of the word for a moment

remove the emotional weight and bearings

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looking back now

i think i was in love with you

the way i held your name to my chest

the way i would’ve done anything

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i had to hold myself back from looking too long

i had to hold my words in

if i’m honest

i wanted you

badly

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i shoved it aside, i ignored it

i let it build in me until it broke

i let it fester in my refusal to believe it

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it took the one song to make me realize

looking back, it’s funny now

the playlist i made for you

the arguments, all to know you better

the photographs

the rooftop spillage

that and more

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i would’ve been yours if you wanted

don’t mind the definition

but as far as i can tell

—i was in love with you