I should probably get a job

I should probably get a job
Make some money
Maybe be able to pay for life,
maybe feel human too

I mean I'm human now,
Yet, If only I had a job

Maybe then I’ll have something to do with day
Maybe I won't be left alone in my brain
Left alone for entire weeks,
how much scare, how much pain

how much can be avoided
how many endless questions
how many limitless holes of doom
save me, how you can save me from the hole of nihilism

yes, how close I am
how simple life can be
do my work for my world
after, my mind will be free and open

open and free
present to enjoy life's real moments
to sit in a cute house
and to be able to be in love with my loves.